I have been taking all day yesterday and part of today off-line because I have never been so disheartened in all my life...and believe, I have been through more crap in my short time of life so far than most have thier whole lifetimes. But what happened to me yesterday beats all. First let me say I am not a rich woman (financially)...not even comfortable, in fact, I have to use food stamps and medicaid...not something I am proud of but something that is necessary for me and my children. I don't like the fact that I get looked down upon for having it. one time i even had a social worker tell me I needed a man to take care of me... I blew up big time at her, won't repeat what I said. Anyhow, I received in the mail a toys voucher where you can go pick up toys for your kids for Christmas if you do not have any for them. It was located at a church and had to be there at 8am. Well i got up early and went there. I overshot the turn to go into the parking lot, so I drove past the church to make a u-turn. The car I was driving was my 88 Jag. My tags says "Bi-Witch" on it...when I drove by I got called heathen and a few other names. That hurt like hell. Made my u-turn and they were still yelling names at me and a fight broke out...I left. I only have enough money to get 1 present each for my boys. My oldest and youngest won't have any problems getting presents as they have thier fathers and thier father's family but my middle son only has me. He has never met his father. But at least the 1 present will be outta love and not outta hate & prejudice. I feel so bad for my winter solstice child. He is so bright & asks for so little, yet I can't give him the 2 things he wishes for...Nintendo ds and animal crossing (the wild life) game. You know, going there, I thought we all had something in common...we want to get things for our children for Christmas and don't have the means...guess I was wrong about the so-called Christmas Spirit.
To top things off, I got a call Friday saying I have to go to court Tuesday because of his absences and he got suspended for defending himself by pushing a girl off of him who was trying to beat the crap outta him. I have always taught my boys to walk away from a fight if you can but defend yourself if you have no other choice. I have dealt with city and county official all year long...and won. A couple more isn't gonna bother me none...I will take all my boys with me and let the school system have it. I am without a doubt the last witch anyone wants to mess with.
I am sooooo tired of people ignorance and narrow mindedness. My kids can't even play with other kids because of what I am...their parents think I am the devil's servant. Yea....right!...like i am gonna worship some mutated narcissistic goat. I am so proud of my babies though. Despite the crap others dish out to them, they still hold on to thier non-prejudicial views.
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