The Fight Continues

For those of you who have been keeping up with me about my boys, well, the fighting continues. My boys and I have a very close and strong relationship, I know them better than they know themselves sometimes. They know me as well, what I am, what I believe in... everything. They know that I support them in exploring their own paths...as long as it does not bring harm to them or others (or against the law).

Anyhow, where to start in this post. Well first let me say that since my last awakening, in 2000, I gained a gift of sorts...insight into events to come in the next year...usually happens between my birthday and new years (in addition to my dream visions). Sometimes they show me in a metaphorical way and other times...very graphic and detailed(911). There are times when it's been hard for me to cypher which it is and other times, it has been on both levels. This year...it's on both levels. I don't completely understand everything I have seen but...I do understand the "feelings" behind them. We will experience a death of a close one, either on a physical level, in a relationship sense, ideals or things within ourselves...and some...all of what I just described. But...and there is a BIG but to this...with the deaths, brings life...a birth of something new. Not sure in what sense, only that I felt euphoric afterwards, even after such sadness and turmoil. In a sense, it's like shedding our old skin and growing into something new, growing pains (best analogy I can come up with at the moment).

Well New Years eve I spent it with my girlfriend. We were talking up a storm and doing a reading when around midnight I felt it coming on. I'm a strong empathic...physical, mental, spiritual and emotional. Anyhow I felt another go into an epileptic seizure, someone I had been connected to since my last awakening. Anyhow, with her help I gained the strength and power and sling shotted the energy back to the source. It felt like my head opened up and something shot out like a volcano, like popping a really bad zit (yea gross, I know, but accurate description). I thought it was over...but then something else happened to me. I laid quiet for a few minutes then all of a sudden I started shaking really bad...couldn't stop it, my throat seized up, couldn't swallow, could barely breathe or talk...scared the living crap outta me...lol, and her. I'm still unsure what happened but one hypothesis is: I went through a year of major chaotic energy thrown at me from every direction and then some...none which could take me down but did cause a bit of a nuisance. I think I stored up all that energy from the year (unconsciously) and it finally ruptured. That "link" was the straw that broke the proverbial camel's back so to speak and when I pushed it back, I got back-lashed. But thanks to her I got control over it and it eventually subsided.

The day after, I go back home. Later that evening I felt like a trucker's convoy ran me over...I got hit with sinuses, then my monthly wheel of pain (a very hard thing to explain) which consisted this month, of me not being able to walk, sit or even lay down for a couple of days... then 7 days ago, the flu (still recovering).

Now, this last week has been real hard for me to control my anger, but not without good reason. Tuesday I picked up Jaryn, my middle son, up from school and he proceeds to tell me that this boy had him jacked up against the wall by the throat. Yesterday, I picked him up from school and right as we walk out the door he tells me this same kid threatened him with a knife...so I got instantly pissed. I wheeled around and took him with me, walked right into the principle's office and told him what happened. In the meantime there's a message for me at home saying that the school counselor is gonna take ME to court over his attendance.

Now here's the kicker...last week he missed school a coupe of days cause he had the flu, brought it back from SC. I did what the court officer told me to do and wrote a note when he returned. A couple of days later the court officer calls me and says that the counselor is wanting to go to court, but that she would stand by ME cause I did exactly what she told me to do. When I tried talking to the principle about all of this he said he didn't have time to deal it. So...when Jaryn got threatened at school...i MADE SURE he had time for me then. Well last night they said they didn't find anything, that it was a pencil and all kinds of other excuses.

So I made up my mind and decided I'm gonna home school him for the rest of the year till I get him in the school he and I wanted in the first place. I do my home work, fill out all the paperwork and mailed it overnight. I went to pick him up today and asked the office what would I need to do to get him removed from the school so I could home school him. The lady gives me a paper and tells me to go to all his classes , have the teachers sign off it and turn in his books...even after I explained to her that I didn't have the card. So we did that. When I came back in the office she proceeds to tell me that all I had to do was bring in the paper stating he was being homeschooled BUT...all the days in between then and now would go against him!
Now I already had this bulldog of a woman on my tail because of his attendance and now this?!...So when I get home I call the court officer, who in turn calls the counselor. The counselor calls me (finally even though she wouldn't return any of my own messages) and I proceed to tell her what happened. She tells me that the officer wants to take me to court while they are saying she wants to...I tell her he is gonna be homeschooled...you know what she had the gall to say to me?! "You know, SOMEONE in the house has to have a GED" as if we are some kinda dumb inbred rednecks with no education...ooh, if I coulda got my hands through that phone it woulda been ON buddy. But instead I replied sarcastically, "Yea, duh, I know...I graduated 3rd highest in the state when I got mine" (of course considering what state, I wouldn't exactly brag about it)...and that was 3 years after I dropped outta 10th grade because the education level wasn't high enough for me...I was bored outta my mind. Anyway, guess she liked the way I said that cause she said to return him to school until I get the note and she would forget the whole court thing.

Now for fight 2 (lol, yea, there's more)...the city sanitation. For the past months I have had this one particular lead guy on the truck come to my door about some of the most stupid reasons I have ever heard. The last one though...they wouldn't pick up my trash...because I didn't have it over the curb (I had it 1ft behind the curb - as did many others). Now the way my yard is...I can't pull the darn thing over the curb (too much physical damage done to me - though it doesn't exactly show). You know why he had been giving me such a hard time?...cause I am pagan and when contacted the city, well...lets just say he picks up my trash now *grins*

Anyhow...please excuse the typos...will fix them later...just had to get this out before I hit the sack...finally a moment to do this posting. Oh, and I have got some real cool things kicking here soon for you all...I should have it ready by the end of the month and hope you all will like. (note to self...need to clean my keyboard too...darn keys aren't working right)